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Name: Jess
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Gender: Female
Interests: erm...God, music, military, writing, computers, karate...yeah, that about sums up most of my life right there ^_^ and, of course, analyzing people!
Expertise: music, reading/writing, analyzing...etc
Occupation: Student
Industry: Psychology
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AIM:  Jpwcello
Member Since:
11/15/2004
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| Alright...one more update when I should be asleep...go me ^_^
Let's see...since September.....
October...boring...November...boring...December...boring...hahaha
January...January 4th, 2008, was the wedding of one of my best friends in Florida ^_^ It was an absolutely beautiful day, and the new couple is doing quite well :)
February...I had a fun Valentine's week ;) I saw the end of a relationship the day after V-day, and the day after that, I fell in love with a pistol ^_^ I've already decided which handgun is going to be my graduation present to myself, but might not wait until graduation to buy it..... During February, my Pappy was hospitalized for a short time with an intestinal blockage, which they discovered to be part of the original cancer tumor.
March...I got to sing in the Easter cantata back home with both my grandparents ^_^ Barring a miracle, it was my Pap's last Easter, so I'm very glad I got to share that with him.
April...CSY did an amazing job with Oklahoma! But the very weekend I was home to see it, my Pappy went back into the hospital with another blockage. I guess Oklahoma was the silver lining to the cloud.
May...I am now officially halfway to my bachelor's degree in Clinical/Experimental Psychology, with minors in Sociology, Criminal Justice, and Strategy/Intelligence. I am home and missing my LU friends and my VA church, but I am seeing my grandparents every Saturday, and nothing in the world could keep me from spending time with my Pappy. He was officially put into hospice two weeks ago, and they're giving him 5-8 weeks.
In the future?
June -- the 13th is Becky and Josh's wedding ^_^ Then the 15th, they go back to Montana.
July -- my friend Bethany's wedding, but since she's in GA, I'm not going lol. Would just cost a tad too much!
August -- family vacation...and if my Pappy is still here, he and Grandma might come along. According to doctors, however, he won't be.
So maybe it's a mildly depressing update, but I hope not. I do not know what the future holds, and right now I have no desire to know most of it anyway!
Prayer for 2008 -- Ezekiel 36:26-27 (NASB) -- "Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put
a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your
flesh and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you
and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will be careful to
observe My ordinances."
If we would only be willing, God would place His heart and spirit within us. Make us willing.
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| haha yes...I don't use this thing :p ah well.....
So...by all rights, I should be asleep. But unfortunately, somebody forgot to tell that nagging section of my brain that the rest of me is tired...and thus, I write.
I don't think I've updated this since high school, in which case there are many and yet few updates to give.
June 2006...so long ago now...graduated. w00t :p Out of high school forever--that, my friends, is cause for celebration XD
August 2006...started at LU. Celebration? You be the judge. I'm content, albeit restless and ready to complete this chapter of life.
December 2006...my older brother got home from his first tour in Iraq and proceeded to get married. Didn't see that one coming, but cool.
Winter 2006...was asked to be a bridesmaid in my Padawan Alecia's wedding this coming January. w00t!!
February 2007...my best friend and sissy Becky got engaged, and we began planning the June 2008 wedding. double w00t!!!
March 2007...declared an official psychology major. Whether it will be used for counseling or law, I have not yet decided...but it's going to be quite a ride.
May 2007...completed a year of college. There were some ups, as well as some downs, but no permanent damage was done. A few chapters of life opened for the first time, and other chapters closed for the last time. All in all? A good two semesters.
August 2007...started the next year of college. One step closer to graduation, one step further away from the comforts of the familiar...yet getting closer to the all-important, yet somehow elusive climax of this period of my life.
which brings us to...
September 2007...the first half hour finds me sleepless yet tired...passive yet wired. I have not lost the person I was at the beginning of this timeline...somewhere inside is still the intense, passionate girl who graduated high school over a year ago. She may be in there...but she's different.
Friends have been made -- Friends have been lost.
Promises have been kept -- Promises have been broken.
Questions have been answered -- Questions remain unanswered.
Yet as this new segment of life begins, the words of Paul resound in my mind.
"Not that I have already
obtained all this, or have already been made perfect,
but I press on to
take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.
Brothers,
I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.
But one thing I
do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 3:12-14)
I do not know what the future holds, even in the coming year. But I do know that it holds changes.
Exciting things await, and I anticipate them with more enthusiasm as a child waits for Christmas morning.
Frightening things also await, and I must be prepared to face them with the same faith as the excitement.
And so, my friends, concludes the post-midnight ramblings of an insomniac-wannabe mind ^_^
Goodnight...and God bless.
Va con Dios!
~Jess
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| Can anyone tell me why this is happening? Because I don't have a clue.
I'll go for quite some time without being bothered by it, but it always comes back.
What is our biggest desire as humans?
Is it success? No, because so many have found it to be empty.
Is it significance? No, or more would strive for it.
Is it love? No. Far too many search for it in the wrong places.
So what is it? Those are the three biggest suggestions.
The correct "Christian" response would be God. Not the issue with success--the Christian life isn't empty. Significance can't be the problem either--what better to strive for than eternal life with an almighty God? As for love, Someone who loves as completely as God surely can't be the wrong place to look.
Then why are so many Christians so dang miserable? I'll tell you why.
They're wrapped up in the rules.
They want to be the perfect "cookie-cutter" Christians, just like everyone else.
They look down on others.
And when I say "they", I'm as guilty as anyone.
It's a heck of a lot easier to look at the flaws in others than it is the flaws in myself. Easier to deal with, too.
But can it really be that simple?
Focusing on God, not the rules He has in place? Isn't that sort of missing the point?
No. It is the point.
Yes, God is just. Yes, He is holy. Those are both true. But God is also love. Notice that I don't say "God loves"--I say God is love.
Imagine that the plan God has for your life is a song. Listen to the song He sings to you as He answers all your questions about life.
The melody, lilting and happy in some places, sadder in others, sometimes fast and furious, and sometimes slow and pensive.
The harmonies intertwine throughout the music, painting a picture that you can almost reach out and grasp. Almost.
Then He stops singing.
You have glimpsed enough to get you through this period of your life.
But that song you heard! It was amazing! Everything you could ever have dreamt of and more, right there...right in those measures of song.
That was His love for you.
It swept you off your feet, just like it felt the first time you were in love. Only this love was better.
This love left you, not empty, but fuller than you had ever imagined.
You would do anything to hear more of that song.
Anything?
Remember those rules we talked about earlier?
Don't follow them as a way to prove you love the Singer of that song.
Follow them because you love Him.
Why do you love Him?
He is Lord. That's enough of a reason by itself.
But more than that?
You heard that song, but you have no idea how it will end.
He knows.
He planned it out in the beginning of time.
He can't wait to see what you will accomplish. The song that you will sing back to Him.
He has planned that magnificent song for you.
Listen to it, absorb it. Worship Him, simply because He is God.
Live your life as the song that you will give back to Him, in response to the song He has given to you.
Do you thrive on challenges? Good, because that's what this is.
A challenge, not to become mighty, but to become humble.
Humbly listen to the song of the Singer.
Make your life the best song you can for His glory. He will bless it.
What do people strive for in life? What do they want more than anything?
To hear the song of their Creator.
You have heard it if you know Him.
Sing it loud and clear. Others will come. They have the same desire you do.
Desire Him.
Only Him.
Share His song with others.
Watch what He does in your life.
A challenge? This is the greatest calling of your life.
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| Heya...time for my random update!, this time just to tell you this--check out this website, and check it often!!! Insense The authors are a guy from my youth group, my brother, and one of their friends.
Peace! <3 Jess | | |
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